Happy Birthday To Me

Omg... I finally turned 23.. Yeah, I am getting old.. But with age comes wisdom. Hahahaha..

I was at Laundry last night.. Saw Joanne with the whole gang there. Met up with Sab. She's forever late!!! Forever man... Actually never could recall her coming earlier than anyone... As though she needs to make a grand entrance.. HAHAHHAHAAHAH... I started of with Vodka, had a half pint Kilkenny's, vodka again... Everything went downhill as soon as the clock striked 12.. Oh Boy... Already high, I had a shot of Lemon Drops with Joanne and Becky.. And someone told the bartender it was my birthday, I had another shot... YUCKS.. It was Sembucca. I hate that damn drink. They had to light it up with fire and make me drink it with a damn straw. And I had la to see an ex-bartender in laundry. He bought me a Flaming. OMG.. Too many different drinks mixing together.. I was such in a happy high stage. It was good... Wanted to go home at 1am... Tried calling my bf but I couldn't find his name on my phone. That was how high I was. Blaming it on the Sembucca.

And some chick la had to put her arms around me as if I knew her a decade ago. And she was leaning on me, putting her weight on me. I am already as high as I could get, and she had to make it worst. Yeah, I did told her off.. Thanks to Joanne for calling my bf for me, walking me to the car and taking care of me... Tried puking but couldn't.. I was lucky to wake up without a hangover or a headache...


Ben, thanks for the card. It's damn cool... But everyone knows I don't have that big assets. hahahah..

Didn't work so much today.. Had a long lunch with Joanne, Ashley and the bosses.. It is going to be another drinking day with the possibility of me getting drunk tonight.. And Sabrina I don't think I will be able to get myself on the bar and dance..

Thanks for the birthday wishes to all, and if I did not SMS back I am really sorry...

Alcohol here I come!!

November is Here!!

The month of birthdays are here. Little did I know that there are many November babies around. Today is Marcus Birthday and he's 30 but don't look like his age. Celebrated his birthday together with Halloween!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARCUS. And then there is my cousin's birthday on the 6th and my dad on the 9th.. And poor me on the 10th. OMG.... I can't believe it... I am turning 23 soon... I'm almost reaching mid 20's. Time sure flies by quickly after your 21st birthday..

What happened to the days when money was not an issue. Where there was no responsibilities besides ones education. The days when you could party as if there is no tomorrow, going for classes with a bad hangover and sometimes drunk. And yet have the options whether you wanna go for classes or not. Going for coffee now and then as often as you could unlike now. The days when you do not have to answer to anyone but yourself. When you do not have to worry about anything. When life was carefree.

Hmm... So what are my plans for my birthday... To be honest I do not have any plans.. Probably go to laundry with friends. Maybe and I say maybe buy a bottle or two if my bank account allows it. hahahaha..But I think I would have a blast...

I guess it is time to grow up. It ain't a bad thing. I do not need anyone to support me as I am capable on supporting myself. But don't be fooled. I still do party hard, but I am trying my level best not to get wasted.

As for life, its getting better each single day. Eventhough at times I have my bad days, but who doesn't have a bad day anyway. Working for me is awesome. I love what I do and I love the people I work with. Hence, there is nothing much for me to complain and bitch about besides my pay.

Tired.....

Right now I am so so tired. I've been working for the past weeks including the weekends. But it was ok until last night. I was working with my colleagues until 5am! It's normal for us to be working until the wee hours in the morning when there's a job.
But somehow I am feeling really tired and sleepy. My eyes can barely open.

We were at the last part of our job that is colour copying 10 booklets that is about 26 pages and 10 black and white. And the copier was damn slow. It took at least 2-5 minutes to copy and print out ONE damn coloured booklet. After that the printer ran out of ink and it took another 5 minutes to get it back to work. On top of that while binding the booklet, some how the trash in the binding machine was full so about 3 booklets that was printed went to waste. The binding machine went nuts or was it us? I really don't know. While trying to clean the trash in the binding machine we broke a screwdriver. hahahaha. It was stuck ok. And we messed up the entire office. We were not the only one that went mad, so was the machines!

And I am supposed to go Laundry tonight. I don't know if I have the strength to go out. And if I do, I don't know if I am able to wake up to go to work tomorrow. DAMN!!! It's Thursday. The weekend is so near and yet apart of me want to go home and hit the sack and apart of me wants to go partying. I am turning into a party animal again.

So I will let time decide for me if I am going out or not. But yet I would want to have a couple (or more) drinks.

Monday

It has been a pretty good week. Hmmm. I went out since last Wednesday night till Saturday night. Been PARTYING with the girls awhole damn LOT. Came back home late and made my lovely boyfriend irritated and upset that I have been partying alot and WITHOUT him. hehehehe... Now I have people to party with before I didn't have much friends that could to party because one of them had CURFEW. OMG. And she was old. As old as me (you know who).

Been going to LCCT (Low Cost Carrier Terminal) awhole lot too. And it's damn boring there la. There is nothing to eat besides, McDonald's and Coffee Bean. The Asian Kitchen Restaurant there, as I heard was *yucky*. But I have never tried. Don't want to. What's the point to waste money.So on Thursday and Friday I was there for casting with Zai (Miss Fabulous) and all I ate was McD's Spicy Beef Foldover. And I had that for dinner on Thursday. So kesian la me.

Went there for recce this morning. Call time at the office was at 8am. So I woke up earlier to get a cab, BUT I COULDN'T. There was no freaking cab today. I called dunno how many numbers over and over again and still couldn't get any. At last I had to beg my poor sick bf to send me to the office and I was late. Sigh.On top of that, the director assumed that the recce has been postponed. We were all LATE. Got there and poor Jo got bombarding left right and center. So kesian her.

And now I am in the office, trying to look busy as usual.But I am blogging away. Waiting for the visualizer to come in and pass me the rest of the frames for the shootboard. Supposed to get it by today but no. I am only receiving it tomorrow morning. That means I have to work at super speed to get all my shit in order. Damn. But it would be fun. Can't wait for the weekend to come, so I could party again. HAHAHAHA. Gonna be shooting next week at LCCT and I can't wait for that too. At least I hope that there will be a few good looking people too look at. So far there is none at LCCT.

What a day to start of the week. It does not seem like anything but if you were in our position at that given time you would know what the hell am I talking about.

M.E.R.D.E.K.A

It is the EVE of Merdeka and I am down with a cold. Dammit. How could this be happening to me. I was fine yesterday, but when I woke up I felt sick. Damn. How am I supposed to PARTY now?? My chances to get drunk tonight seems to be very low. Don't know if I can handle my drinks well under this circumstances. But who knows. My currently dilemma now is whether should I stay home tonight (and miss partying, so I could party hard tomorrow with my friends) or just f**k it and party till the weekend.

It is such an irony. My boyfriend is leaving to Phuket tomorrow on Merdeka's day. It's FREEDOM!! hahahaha. Freedom for the country and myself. Never thought you could kill two birds with one stone. hehehehe... And I am falling sick. *double damn*. How could this be happening to me. It was supposed to be my freedom where I could PARTY and the things I could do. *grins* Don't worry baby, I'll be a good girl.. * cheeky*

Let's recap on our beautiful country Malaysia. How patriotic are we? Do we have flags hanging on our cars and houses? If we do, does this mean that we are patriotic? Don't ask me I have no idea. I have no house (which belongs to me) nor own a car. So how the hell should I know. But I feel very grateful to be born in Malaysia although at times I wished that I was not. To think about it, we live in a very peaceful place, no internal wars. We live in harmony.

But most of us born after WW2, we are not VERY patriotic. But I am glad our forefathers worked their ass to give us the opportunity to live in a lovely place.

Peace out and have a good Merdeka. I might be partying tonight after all. See you laterz peeps.

Relationships

Relationships seems to be so complicated. Why? When you are single you wish you had a partner. But when you're attached you wanna be single. And there are times when you are attached you wish that you could just break it up with your partner as she or he causes you too much headache and heartache and you will think that you are better off being without them. When it comes down to the crunch (break up) you realize that you could not live without him. You feel that your bottom half of your body has gone missing. You feel like DYING. You wished that someone could pull the trigger and end it. But is this was worth it. In 5 years down the road, you be thinking that you are DAMN DUMB. And you feel that you made a fool out of yourself and that you found out you did it, you have moved on. Sigh.

When you are in a relationship, you don't see things like an outsider does. When a friend or friends tells you what you did was wrong, and all you could do is either blast them away, give them your opinion and tell them to BUTT OUT. But then again, you don't see things out of the box like they do. When I was first going out with my bf everything was fine and dandy. But I couldn't call anyone babe which I was used too calling my friends it does not matter if it's a guy or girl. So I stopped it. Then he left to Australia for studies and the next thing was, you can't wear this top, that top, this skirt and that skirt. And I did it. Some may say I'm giving in too much, some may say I'm stupid and some may not have any opinion.

But when it comes to FLIRTING and dirty dancing it was a BIG NO NO especially when you are only going out for a year or so. So why make things more complicated than ever. If you don't want to get in to arguments then compromise. Don't do that. A friend of mine once dirty dance with a friend. And from the dance floor I could see her bf looking at her. Enough was enough, He got mad. It is normal for your man to be upset and jealous. If you were in his shoes wouldn't you be the react the same or worst? But at that time you don't see his point of view and you think that he is just being very childish.

A close friend of mine just broken up. We started to talk. But what I said meant nothing because he or she felt that I was out there to get him/her. But when you realizes it, it would have been TOO LATE.

It seems to be a bad month for relationships. Another friend of mine was in contact with this guy from Malacca. They seemed to be going out yet they were not. I know she has the heart for him. Out of the blue he told her to f**k off and that he doesn't want to see her again. And he threatened her. Such a BASTARD!. If I ever find out that he is in town, I am so going to kick his yellow arse back to where he belong. To think that he could mess with some city chicks. Boy, you are so damn wrong. Luckily he is a bastard now before they even went out together.

I wouldn't say that my relationship with my partner is blissful. I would be lying if I said so. Yes we are happy. And yes we do have our ups and downs moments. In the end, if you really want to make it work, it is all about compromising. Even if the girls that have to compromise most of the time. Sometimes I feel like I had it enough. Enough is enough. But could you just throw what you have for more than a year away just like that because he did something that was so insensitive?

Re-Cap

Last Friday Sab and I went to Zouk for the so called Paris Hilton's party "One Night with Paris" konon. We arrived there and the drama begins. Sabrina could not enter Zouk because she's not yet 21. So troublesome. Called Brian, and he couldn't do anything. Luckily I saw Wy Wy. So she brought Sab in as her guest. The blinking event only started out at 11pm. So damn late. And I didn't want to spend money in Zouk. So we were just there to see the event.

And there were so many embarrassing people there that night. There's this bunch of African American both male and female and they just made fool of themselves that night. They were sitting on the couch that was ON THE STAGE, and they were trying to act cool. There were camera crews at Zouk too. So I guess they wanted their five seconds of fame. The best part, one of them stole or should I say SNATCH the microphone off Joey G and he started to Rap. OMG. So LAME!

There's one competition, where they were giving out I-Pod Nano, so they called up 5 ladies up the stage. The deal is that they needed to sing Paris Hilton song. Out of the 5, 2 were from the African American group. One backed out. When it came to her turn to sing she asked if she could get a beat. So her guy friend took the other microphone. SHE WAS SO OUT OF TUNE! OMG. The crowd BOO-ed at her. But in the end I think she was so bad that they didn't know whether should they boo at her or not. I could not handle the embarrassment for I could picture it happening to me. Can't believe it.

As soon as the event finished we left Zouk. There was nothing much happening there. And we continued to party at Laundry. And there was drama too at laundry. OMG. In the end of the night, some one had to start crying la. I also don't know. But I don't really give a damn. I know why she cried and I know certain things that I should not be writing in here.

As for Saturday, I got absolutely high. It was a good night. Spend a lot of money for this particular weekend. Took my whole family out to dinner at a Japanese Restaurant on Sunday. All in all it was a good weekend. At least for once I did not create any drama when I'm so HIGH.... hehehe.....

Gloomy Day

It's Wednesday at last. Another 2 working days left before the weekend..*Yippie*. The weather seems to be so gloomy today. If I have it my way, I would not have dragged myself out from my bed. I can actually visualize the comfort of my bed and feel the cool air. I can picture myself tucked in my bed under the soft quilt and dozing off and having Pirate beside me. Pirate is the baby of the house. He's such a cutie and he's a dog. Sigh. How I wish I could do so.

Somewhat, it has been a gloomy day. A few of my friends are feeling down. Maybe their sadness has something to do with the weather. A close friend of mine has lost his beloved grandma last week. May her soul rest in peace. This made me think of my grandmother. And it has been awhile since I've seen her. The last was during my graduation. Oh, how I miss her and my family. But then again I can't stop partying during the weekend.

Let's see what I have planned out for the weekend.. Hmm.. Laundry Bar on Friday, Velvet on Saturday? Sigh not sure about Velvet as the football season has started and Arsenal is playing on Saturday. So its either Laundry and the football game or party at Velvet. ARGH.. NO IDEA!!!

I can't wait for Joanne to come back from India. Miss her and her wackiness.

RocStar : Supernova

Ahh.. The reality show of a bunch of rockers that would want to see a day to be playing with "the" band. JD had his break through Rockstar:INXS and now he's the front man of INXS. Damn, he's hot. Who would be the front man/woman of Supernova??

Some of the guys from the show are HOT!. Personally I feel that they have better potential and performance skills than those in American Idol. A guy who can sing and play an instruments are damn HOT. Don't you think so? And it is not that easy doing both at the same time, I think.

Josh Logan was eliminated last week. Sigh. He's hot and cute at the same time. He has a soulful voice but I guess rock is not his cup of tea. He could sing from Stevie Wonder to Reggae. Awh!. I wish that he could still be in the show. Something I look forward to. He can sing and play the guitar too. *WOW* *HOT*







Dilana is one rocker chick dudette. She has a distinct voice. She sound really great. And besides that she has the balls go to up to Supernova stage and sing right infront of them. The amount of tattoos that she has on her body, is unbelievable. If Supernova would choose a girl to front their band I will vote for her.







Personally I feel Toby is one of the most talented rocker amongst the group. Every week he comes up with different ideas and styles to the audience. I think he would be perfect for Supernova. He has great performance skills. And he's not bad looking either.





There are many guys out there that can play the guitar. However there are not many that could play the piano. When I first saw Ryan, just him and the piano, the first thing that went through my mind was "WOW". Damn it. He plays it better than me. Sigh. On top of that he plays the guitar too.

A Pair of Jeans

Boss will not be in till Friday. *Yippie*.Hence we went to Sungai Wang from 12pm to 4pm. Damn. We really did not have any work to do. hahaha. so ponteng la. But we did go back to the office after our so called shopping.Shopping at times could be such a hassle for me. I can shop easily for tops but not jeans. Don't know why. Maybe the kind of jeans I have in mind ceased to exist in the real world. So goddamn depressing la. The thing is I know I need a new pair of jeans but there is so many complication. No.1, NO MONEY!!!, No2. most of the jeans do not really fit me. That is why at times I wonder what the hell happened to the Chinese genes. My mix parentage did not go well in that department.

I tried this particular jeans, and my colleagues said it fitted me. I didn't mind buying it truthfully. But I have bought a pair of jeans that I only wore once. So I'm kinda careful in what I buy especially when it comes to a pair of jeans.One of my colleagues didn't mind buying it for me first then will pay her back when I get my cash. Being me, I have to think a million times before buying something, especially when it comes to shoes, sandals and jeans. It's also depressing to see that they could fit any cut/style but almost everything did not fit me. ARGH! So irritated. Maybe I should have bought it and then regret it later. I don't know. So confusing.

I do hope tomorrow will be another shopping day for us. Then I could decide. But then again I have no $$$. When the hell am I going to be rich?

A happy weekend

Friday 21st July 2006
Finished shoot on Friday. *Yippiee*. Went to Laundry right after shoot on Friday with Joanne, Nana and Meredith for our wrap party. We were so tired that it didn't take a long time for us to get drunk. Had two glasses of wine and I was already *high*. Obviously, for me it was not enough. Had to order my all time favourite drink Long Island in Laundry. That was a killer. Many of my friends were that that night. Meet up with Steve, Sylvia, Leonard aka pervet and Claire. Kevin was there with his girlfriend. Peter came too. And not to forget Sabrina.


* Check out la my damn bloody eye bags, I look so damn tired too*


* Me and my biatch*




*One of my favourite bartender in Laundry*


* Classmates : Sabrina, Peter, Me & Mr. Ravin aka Pink Top*


*Lap dancing with my bitch* (I was drunk by that time)

Was supposed to go supper after that, but I was so tired and drunk I didn't care less. All I wanted to do was to go home and put my head down on the pillow. Besides I had to wake up early the next day as I had to go for my convocation. And I have been waking up for the past 2 damn days at 4.30 in the morning to go to shoot which I only had like 2hours of sleep.By the time I got home I only had bout 3 hours of sleep.

Saturday 22nd July 2006
Woke up a lil late for my convo. Poor Kevin, he had to wait up for me for about 30mins. Could barely keep my eyes open. It was so nostalgic. Almost all my classmate was there. It was like a reunion. Thank goodness the ceremony was not long. It was a tiring day. My dearest bf had to come late. So my parents had to wait for him and he was still asleep when my mum called him. So unbelievable la. But it is so him. Drove me insane for awhile. But luckily the staff of IACT was so nice that they allowed my parents, my grandma and my godma to enter without the tickets. *Phew*. If not I would have slaughtered my dearest bf.

I was absolutely grumpy that day. Lack of sleep, tired and everything in between. The robe was kinda heavy. As I returned my robe in, my beloved mum came and she asked me to get the RM 90 photos. I swore I could see fire burning inside out from my body. Being a good child I did. Wore the robe again took the pictures. After all that I did not even have the time to eat. By the time I was done with the pictures I lost my appetite. But I felt so bad after that, cause I kinda let out my anger to my beloved mother. Still feel bad. Damn. I was trying to control my temper ok. But it just did not work out the way I wanted too.


* Class photo. But not everyone was there that day. Sigh*


* The Man Of The Hour*


* The Best of the best lecturer ever. Too bad she left*

I could see the joy in my parents eyes to see me finally graduating after all the trouble I put them through. My mum was so happy till the point that I could not describe it. My dad had always kept his calm throughout the event, but I could see joy and sadness in his eyes. Joy for the fact I have graduated, sad for the fact that his little girl has grown up. This was my second college. I was studying accounting before this. Ya I know, it's a huge difference between accounting and advertising. But to see my parents so happy that day made me feel proud. They were so excited. More excited than I was. I am glad that they were there for me through my ups and downs. Godma and my grandma have always been a huge part of me when I was growing up. To see the both of them there made my day. She got me a beautiful bouquet of flowers. Didn't know that my own godmother loves to take pictures. What to do. The John family.

Went out for a drink at McD's with my bf, Kevin and his gf. But all of us was just so damn tired that we did not stay there long. Went home and hit the sack. I didn't wake up until midnight. It was a damn good sleep. Later we went to Oasis, met up with Sab, Sunil and Eng Soon. It was Eng Soon's birthday. Was there for only an hour or so. It was a relaxing weekend from then on.

Not Again

My life has too many dramas. Some of it was created by me and my stupidity. And that was what happened on Friday night. Because of that I almost lost the man I love. I do admit that at times he irritates the life out of me but that is just the way he is. And I know that I do irritate him to and at times drive him up the wall. But all in all I am grateful that he is who he is.

Love you baby.

Something About You

Stole this off Obi Meow.

Leave your name on the comment box and:
1. I'll respond with something random about you
2. I'll challenge you to try something
3. I'll pick a colour that associates you
4. I'll tell you something I like about you
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you
8. And lastly, if i do all of the above for you, you must post this on your blog! And say you stole this from me :D:D:D

Enjoy!

The Finals

Almost everyone I know confidently said that France will be the World Champion! Come on, they were playing against Italy. A country that has never won THE CUP for the past 12 years. Hence the judgement that France would win. As for me, I was putting my hopes high for ITALY! (though I am not a fan).

I was surrounded by France supporters last night at Laundry Bar. They were saying how France is going to kick the Italians butt. Should have seen the look on their faces when Italy won. Lesson: Do not speak too early it may fire back at you. I have realized that there are a few French supporters that could not believe that Italy won THE CUP. The amount of comments that they made regarding the game is so irrelevant. Come on guys. Did you actually watch the game?

Henry is a lansi MOFO. In the end he is just world ranking No.2, not No.1 like Ronaldhino (am a Brazil fan). Henry is so over-rated. The way he points to his eyes indicating that the referee should look is so over. Without Henry, France is NOTHING. Italy played so well that the only goal that France got to score was a penalty! That is all. Whereas Italy did managed to score a goal against the French. France supporters may say that, France was just giving chance to Italy or Italy is just plain lucky. Bullshit!!. Italy played so well. Their defence was excellent. They defended Henry. And because of that France could not even score a decent goal! To think about it, when they were playing against Brazil the only goal they scored was a penalty. OMG.

Drama. What the hell happened to Zidane. Such a DUMB ASS. Butt headed an Italian player at the last 10-20 minutes of extra time. What the hell was he thinking anyway. It was his last game ever, the least he could do was to leave in style. On the other hand left as a loser. To take substitute Henry was a mistake. A bigger mistake was DUMB ASS ZIDANE. A dumb captain that could not even receive his medal.

I will always remembered the game 4years ago when France was playing against Senegal. And was beaten flat down.

So sad yet so happy.

Viva Italia!!

A Broken Heart

In a relationship couple tends to view issue differently and sometimes do not see things eye to eye. Things like this do happen most of the time. There are situation when one tend to pick a fight just for the sake of it. Yes, I know. I am one of them. If you don't have an argument there is no life in the relationship. This is my opinion. Do not get me wrong. I am talking on behalf of myself too, so don't get too worked out . MY GOD WHAT IS HAPPENING TO THE WORLD TODAY.

But when this harmless arguments turn into a war with words. OMG. This is bad. One party tends to say harmful things just to hurt the other. This is where things from good turns UGLY. And I mean it. I know both male and female could start this. But the MALE has to always END it by saying something that HURTS so much and make the ladies evaluate their relationship. When the "War of Words" end. We ladies (maybe it is just myself) would just pretend that nothing happened. But deep down in my soul I know that this ain't over boy. Trying not to be a party pooper "I" tend to ignore it and sometimes just forget about it. No shit, it actually bugs the life out of me but trying to show that everything is nice and perfect at times we need to put on a mask (on a contrary for my past post). This mask is not a mask that one put to make everyone adores you, but a mask so that as a couple one party won't argue with the other in order not to make our men " loose face" in public.

A scenario: After minutes of arguing, the male said " I know what I am getting in the future and how I want to spend it, and I tried to break up with you for the benefit of the long run". What the hell is that supposed to mean? I know. They had this conversation before but nothing like that. Nothing prepared her from those harmful words breaking up with you will benefit me in a long run. Seriously tell me what the fuck is that. As any woman you might be have the same thoughts. Is this how women in a relationship should be treated? With no pride? As for the male is that how you show appreciation to your woman? After all she must have been with you through thick and thin. Knowing your deepest and darkest thoughts. Being there for you when no one has.

If you were in that lady's shoe, what would you do? Leave him? It is easier said than done. Should you just pack up and leave without saying goodbye? What ever choice that you made is for you and only you no one else. I am hurt, I am upset. I would love to pack my things and leave without saying goodbye. If that was me. BUT if I love him dearly I will stay. And yet I will have all this questions popping out of my head. This isn't the first time. What if it happens again? Will things go back were they were? Should I at least give it a try? Reality is I don't know. If things do not work out, could I love some one again?

Could some one mend a broken heart?

Saturday Night Fever

OMG it was a good Saturday night until I was drunk and I wanted beat the shit out of this specky Chinese man. Too much drama that was happening that day. And to be frank I was embarrassing. "OMG I must be joking posting this up". But what to do, this is who I am.

What happened was. We were and the bar Sab and I. Obviously drunk, we were dancing. The thing was there were so many people in the club that has NO manners at all. You could at least tell us to excuse you and not pushing us to get your way through. So I went to everyone that was walking pass us and said " Sorry. Excuse me" even though I do not need to. Then came the Chinese specky guy. And Sab told him excuse me. And he just stopped, looked at her and told her that she is crude. WTF! Already drunk like hell I was pissed off. I wanted to punch the guy's face. (I can be damn aggresive when I am drunk but most of the time I am a sleepy drunk) So this was once in a blue moon that I became Mrs Frankestien.

One thing led to another. My friend got drunk and he went missing so all the attention went to him. And I was the pissed off one. Then I became crude with all the vulgarity coming out of my mouth. Some even think that I wanted to beat up some one we know that was passing through. My lovely bf could not control me as I was uncontrollable. The drama has begun when I saw the Chinese specky guy talking to some one I know. The rage in me was burning furiously. Ya ya I know that I can be a DRAMA QUEEN!!

Later I turned out to be an emotional drunk. I have no idea why but I think it was what my lovely bf said to me. So I walked out of the place and continue walking aimlessly until I reached the car. Full at rage and emotional drunk do not and I mean DO NOT go well hand in hand. My lovely bf slam my friends door and at the same time fractured his poor tumb. So I went back with Sab and her man, while he went to the hospital. That night we broke up.

The next day I went back to his house bearing in mind that I need to packed my stuff and leave. But retrospect I fell asleep beside him. And then we started talking about what happened. It turn out to be both of us was talking about 2 separate issues. This is what I called my stupidity and irrational thinking. I admit. I am embarrassed of what happened.

So I would like to say sorry to all of my friends that was at the car park. And that I am grateful to have you as my true friends. May our friendship last till eternity.

MiSs-UnD3rStOoD

I bet that all of you have heard the saying "Do Not Judge The Book By Its Cover". But how many of you actually live on that saying? I can tell you. There are only a few who actually understand that statement and actually practice it but there are many who think that they do not judge some one but in the end has many things to say and bitch regarding a person looks or behavior. These are the people that are hypocrites in my opinion. I myself preached that I do not judge the book but at times I do judged some one before getting to know them. It is a human nature.

As a person I have always been misunderstood by those around me. I have been judged by the way I look and the way I behave. I have been judged to be a "Snob" or a "Stuck Up" person. But that is just how I look to most people. It seems I give an "air" around me that says "I'm too good for you" or " F**k off " or even " You Do Not Want to Mess with Me". But then again that is how I look. I can't change the fact that I was born the way I did. And I am not complaining because the "air" that gives to people around me has a line boundary that has been drawn between to those I know dearly and to those I barely know.

Many think that there is a need to put on a facade to everyone, but to me, honestly I don't really care. Why is there a need to put on a mask that does not portray the "real" you? Is there a need to be accepted by people? Everyone wants the sense of belonging, to be attached to a group of people to be called friends. I am a girl that does not give a damn of what people might think of me, and I am a type of girl who would speak her mind even when she knows that it might hurt others. And most importantly I am NOT one of those GIRLIE GIRLS that you see giggling, wearing pink most of the time or even wear heels when going out to a club. I do wear pink (FYI I only have 2 pink tops), I do wear high heels when I feel like it BUT I AM NO GIRLIE GIRL that you could just play mind games with because I don't fall for it.

I am quiet to those I barely know but a big mouth and noisy to those I am close to. I can be quiet one minute and then go PSYCHO another minute. If I do not know you, there is no need for me to start with small talks. " Oh, how are you", "Where did you buy your clothes from" and bla bla bla. To me that is a waste of time and energy. But I do try to have small talks if you were a friend of a friend of mine or etc. Do not judge me because I do not have small conversation with you. It is not because I do not like you, it is just because I have no idea what to talk to you about. I have nothing to talk on girlie girls topic. If I am not close to you it doesn't mean I don't like you either, it is just that I don't think we click as a person or a friend. So don't misinterpret my actions.

I may look stuck up, I may sound crude, but for any reasons I should not be MiSs-Understood! If you want to judge me, then take the time to get to know me cause I sure don't want to be MiSs-Understood.

Damn it

When I was trying to create this blog, something happened and I decided to delete it but for some god forsaken reasons I could not delete the account. So much drama to create this damn blog. Then I could not see certain things and all. And I know for a fact my boyfriend was getting irritated with my continuous questions and all. After hours of trying, I managed to get it right. *Phew*. Then the time came to post and guess what, I could not post my damn blog. It was so frustrating. Just to tell you this all happened yesterday. And it is starting to irritate the life out of me.

I am more of a Mac users, I like it. But apparently this blog could not be posted or done in a Mac computer. Maybe the website should upgrade its software to make it compatible with Mac and not for the Mac to upgrade its software. This is so complicated. Didn't I say it is just too much drama to post the damn blog. So now I need to ask my favourite bf to post it for me. This is so damn LAME. I have lost all words for this blog.