In a relationship couple tends to view issue differently and sometimes do not see things eye to eye. Things like this do happen most of the time. There are situation when one tend to pick a fight just for the sake of it. Yes, I know. I am one of them. If you don't have an argument there is no life in the relationship. This is my opinion. Do not get me wrong. I am talking on behalf of myself too, so don't get too worked out . MY GOD WHAT IS HAPPENING TO THE WORLD TODAY.
But when this harmless arguments turn into a war with words. OMG. This is bad. One party tends to say harmful things just to hurt the other. This is where things from good turns UGLY. And I mean it. I know both male and female could start this. But the MALE has to always END it by saying something that HURTS so much and make the ladies evaluate their relationship. When the "War of Words" end. We ladies (maybe it is just myself) would just pretend that nothing happened. But deep down in my soul I know that this ain't over boy. Trying not to be a party pooper "I" tend to ignore it and sometimes just forget about it. No shit, it actually bugs the life out of me but trying to show that everything is nice and perfect at times we need to put on a mask (on a contrary for my past post). This mask is not a mask that one put to make everyone adores you, but a mask so that as a couple one party won't argue with the other in order not to make our men " loose face" in public.
A scenario: After minutes of arguing, the male said " I know what I am getting in the future and how I want to spend it, and I tried to break up with you for the benefit of the long run". What the hell is that supposed to mean? I know. They had this conversation before but nothing like that. Nothing prepared her from those harmful words breaking up with you will benefit me in a long run. Seriously tell me what the fuck is that. As any woman you might be have the same thoughts. Is this how women in a relationship should be treated? With no pride? As for the male is that how you show appreciation to your woman? After all she must have been with you through thick and thin. Knowing your deepest and darkest thoughts. Being there for you when no one has.
If you were in that lady's shoe, what would you do? Leave him? It is easier said than done. Should you just pack up and leave without saying goodbye? What ever choice that you made is for you and only you no one else. I am hurt, I am upset. I would love to pack my things and leave without saying goodbye. If that was me. BUT if I love him dearly I will stay. And yet I will have all this questions popping out of my head. This isn't the first time. What if it happens again? Will things go back were they were? Should I at least give it a try? Reality is I don't know. If things do not work out, could I love some one again?
Could some one mend a broken heart?
Thursday, June 29, 2006
Monday, June 26, 2006
Saturday Night Fever
OMG it was a good Saturday night until I was drunk and I wanted beat the shit out of this specky Chinese man. Too much drama that was happening that day. And to be frank I was embarrassing. "OMG I must be joking posting this up". But what to do, this is who I am.
What happened was. We were and the bar Sab and I. Obviously drunk, we were dancing. The thing was there were so many people in the club that has NO manners at all. You could at least tell us to excuse you and not pushing us to get your way through. So I went to everyone that was walking pass us and said " Sorry. Excuse me" even though I do not need to. Then came the Chinese specky guy. And Sab told him excuse me. And he just stopped, looked at her and told her that she is crude. WTF! Already drunk like hell I was pissed off. I wanted to punch the guy's face. (I can be damn aggresive when I am drunk but most of the time I am a sleepy drunk) So this was once in a blue moon that I became Mrs Frankestien.
One thing led to another. My friend got drunk and he went missing so all the attention went to him. And I was the pissed off one. Then I became crude with all the vulgarity coming out of my mouth. Some even think that I wanted to beat up some one we know that was passing through. My lovely bf could not control me as I was uncontrollable. The drama has begun when I saw the Chinese specky guy talking to some one I know. The rage in me was burning furiously. Ya ya I know that I can be a DRAMA QUEEN!!
Later I turned out to be an emotional drunk. I have no idea why but I think it was what my lovely bf said to me. So I walked out of the place and continue walking aimlessly until I reached the car. Full at rage and emotional drunk do not and I mean DO NOT go well hand in hand. My lovely bf slam my friends door and at the same time fractured his poor tumb. So I went back with Sab and her man, while he went to the hospital. That night we broke up.
The next day I went back to his house bearing in mind that I need to packed my stuff and leave. But retrospect I fell asleep beside him. And then we started talking about what happened. It turn out to be both of us was talking about 2 separate issues. This is what I called my stupidity and irrational thinking. I admit. I am embarrassed of what happened.
So I would like to say sorry to all of my friends that was at the car park. And that I am grateful to have you as my true friends. May our friendship last till eternity.
What happened was. We were and the bar Sab and I. Obviously drunk, we were dancing. The thing was there were so many people in the club that has NO manners at all. You could at least tell us to excuse you and not pushing us to get your way through. So I went to everyone that was walking pass us and said " Sorry. Excuse me" even though I do not need to. Then came the Chinese specky guy. And Sab told him excuse me. And he just stopped, looked at her and told her that she is crude. WTF! Already drunk like hell I was pissed off. I wanted to punch the guy's face. (I can be damn aggresive when I am drunk but most of the time I am a sleepy drunk) So this was once in a blue moon that I became Mrs Frankestien.
One thing led to another. My friend got drunk and he went missing so all the attention went to him. And I was the pissed off one. Then I became crude with all the vulgarity coming out of my mouth. Some even think that I wanted to beat up some one we know that was passing through. My lovely bf could not control me as I was uncontrollable. The drama has begun when I saw the Chinese specky guy talking to some one I know. The rage in me was burning furiously. Ya ya I know that I can be a DRAMA QUEEN!!
Later I turned out to be an emotional drunk. I have no idea why but I think it was what my lovely bf said to me. So I walked out of the place and continue walking aimlessly until I reached the car. Full at rage and emotional drunk do not and I mean DO NOT go well hand in hand. My lovely bf slam my friends door and at the same time fractured his poor tumb. So I went back with Sab and her man, while he went to the hospital. That night we broke up.
The next day I went back to his house bearing in mind that I need to packed my stuff and leave. But retrospect I fell asleep beside him. And then we started talking about what happened. It turn out to be both of us was talking about 2 separate issues. This is what I called my stupidity and irrational thinking. I admit. I am embarrassed of what happened.
So I would like to say sorry to all of my friends that was at the car park. And that I am grateful to have you as my true friends. May our friendship last till eternity.
Thursday, June 22, 2006
MiSs-UnD3rStOoD
I bet that all of you have heard the saying "Do Not Judge The Book By Its Cover". But how many of you actually live on that saying? I can tell you. There are only a few who actually understand that statement and actually practice it but there are many who think that they do not judge some one but in the end has many things to say and bitch regarding a person looks or behavior. These are the people that are hypocrites in my opinion. I myself preached that I do not judge the book but at times I do judged some one before getting to know them. It is a human nature.
As a person I have always been misunderstood by those around me. I have been judged by the way I look and the way I behave. I have been judged to be a "Snob" or a "Stuck Up" person. But that is just how I look to most people. It seems I give an "air" around me that says "I'm too good for you" or " F**k off " or even " You Do Not Want to Mess with Me". But then again that is how I look. I can't change the fact that I was born the way I did. And I am not complaining because the "air" that gives to people around me has a line boundary that has been drawn between to those I know dearly and to those I barely know.
Many think that there is a need to put on a facade to everyone, but to me, honestly I don't really care. Why is there a need to put on a mask that does not portray the "real" you? Is there a need to be accepted by people? Everyone wants the sense of belonging, to be attached to a group of people to be called friends. I am a girl that does not give a damn of what people might think of me, and I am a type of girl who would speak her mind even when she knows that it might hurt others. And most importantly I am NOT one of those GIRLIE GIRLS that you see giggling, wearing pink most of the time or even wear heels when going out to a club. I do wear pink (FYI I only have 2 pink tops), I do wear high heels when I feel like it BUT I AM NO GIRLIE GIRL that you could just play mind games with because I don't fall for it.
I am quiet to those I barely know but a big mouth and noisy to those I am close to. I can be quiet one minute and then go PSYCHO another minute. If I do not know you, there is no need for me to start with small talks. " Oh, how are you", "Where did you buy your clothes from" and bla bla bla. To me that is a waste of time and energy. But I do try to have small talks if you were a friend of a friend of mine or etc. Do not judge me because I do not have small conversation with you. It is not because I do not like you, it is just because I have no idea what to talk to you about. I have nothing to talk on girlie girls topic. If I am not close to you it doesn't mean I don't like you either, it is just that I don't think we click as a person or a friend. So don't misinterpret my actions.
I may look stuck up, I may sound crude, but for any reasons I should not be MiSs-Understood! If you want to judge me, then take the time to get to know me cause I sure don't want to be MiSs-Understood.
As a person I have always been misunderstood by those around me. I have been judged by the way I look and the way I behave. I have been judged to be a "Snob" or a "Stuck Up" person. But that is just how I look to most people. It seems I give an "air" around me that says "I'm too good for you" or " F**k off " or even " You Do Not Want to Mess with Me". But then again that is how I look. I can't change the fact that I was born the way I did. And I am not complaining because the "air" that gives to people around me has a line boundary that has been drawn between to those I know dearly and to those I barely know.
Many think that there is a need to put on a facade to everyone, but to me, honestly I don't really care. Why is there a need to put on a mask that does not portray the "real" you? Is there a need to be accepted by people? Everyone wants the sense of belonging, to be attached to a group of people to be called friends. I am a girl that does not give a damn of what people might think of me, and I am a type of girl who would speak her mind even when she knows that it might hurt others. And most importantly I am NOT one of those GIRLIE GIRLS that you see giggling, wearing pink most of the time or even wear heels when going out to a club. I do wear pink (FYI I only have 2 pink tops), I do wear high heels when I feel like it BUT I AM NO GIRLIE GIRL that you could just play mind games with because I don't fall for it.
I am quiet to those I barely know but a big mouth and noisy to those I am close to. I can be quiet one minute and then go PSYCHO another minute. If I do not know you, there is no need for me to start with small talks. " Oh, how are you", "Where did you buy your clothes from" and bla bla bla. To me that is a waste of time and energy. But I do try to have small talks if you were a friend of a friend of mine or etc. Do not judge me because I do not have small conversation with you. It is not because I do not like you, it is just because I have no idea what to talk to you about. I have nothing to talk on girlie girls topic. If I am not close to you it doesn't mean I don't like you either, it is just that I don't think we click as a person or a friend. So don't misinterpret my actions.
I may look stuck up, I may sound crude, but for any reasons I should not be MiSs-Understood! If you want to judge me, then take the time to get to know me cause I sure don't want to be MiSs-Understood.
Damn it
When I was trying to create this blog, something happened and I decided to delete it but for some god forsaken reasons I could not delete the account. So much drama to create this damn blog. Then I could not see certain things and all. And I know for a fact my boyfriend was getting irritated with my continuous questions and all. After hours of trying, I managed to get it right. *Phew*. Then the time came to post and guess what, I could not post my damn blog. It was so frustrating. Just to tell you this all happened yesterday. And it is starting to irritate the life out of me.
I am more of a Mac users, I like it. But apparently this blog could not be posted or done in a Mac computer. Maybe the website should upgrade its software to make it compatible with Mac and not for the Mac to upgrade its software. This is so complicated. Didn't I say it is just too much drama to post the damn blog. So now I need to ask my favourite bf to post it for me. This is so damn LAME. I have lost all words for this blog.
I am more of a Mac users, I like it. But apparently this blog could not be posted or done in a Mac computer. Maybe the website should upgrade its software to make it compatible with Mac and not for the Mac to upgrade its software. This is so complicated. Didn't I say it is just too much drama to post the damn blog. So now I need to ask my favourite bf to post it for me. This is so damn LAME. I have lost all words for this blog.
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