please press one

it's 3 am and we're still in the office. it has been quite a havoc day. it was totally crowded earlier with talents everywhere lingering in the office and the non-stop phone calls asking for the goddamn directions. despite giving them the directions, some could even drive all the way to bandar utama instead to damansara heights! unbelievable. at times i wonder what the hell were they thinking. sigh. it's so frustrating answering calls especially when there's casting in the office. argh. i wish we had an answering machine that goes :

hello.. welcome to film base... unfortunately all of our operators are busy at the moment. if you're looking for directions please press 1. please choose the destination that you're coming from.
press 1: if you're coming from bandar utama or NKVE
press 2: if you're coming from LDP
press 3: if you're coming from KL
press 4 : if you're coming from bangsar
and if you're at none of the destination above you could either drive all the way to one of the destination mentioned or if you don't like it you can fuck off. thank you for calling.

che wah. how i wish we could say that. hahaha. they came in for casting, maybe bringing their brains along but some left their eyes at home. asking questions 'where is the form'. harlow. it's on the coffee table. LOOK FOR IT. maybe they were blinded with the shades that they were wearing, mind you in the office. people, posers..maybe we could post 'please do not disturb film base employees with your petty, unnecessary questions.'

something to brighten our day. this could be photoshop already. who cares. i don't. do you? even if you did care, i don't give two shites.

the way i are

i have never realized about the way i am, or my habit. especially not about the way i eat until my colleagues actually pointed it out today. it is strangely funny. it was all about me finishing my lunch first for the first time before them. i have never noticed it. about the way i eat or how i ate it more over how long it took me to finish my food. and they were imitating the way i eat. hahaha. it was funny. i couldn't stop laughing. to think about it, it is true. they would all be done with their food and not me. i am a slow eater. i don't know if it is a good or a bad thing.

they said that i eat slower than the average people and that i tend to separate my food all together even when i am eating the packed nasi lemak. didn't thought of it much when i was doing it. but it's weird when they could imitate the way i eat. hahaha. i need to get a second or more like a fourth opinion, since there was three of them during lunch commenting about the way i eat. i have this thing about food. i love food. so it was so unfair that i have low metabolic rate while others have it high.

i have seen people eating and some of them are quite disgusting. i saw someone when i was young, he/she had food in the mouth and yet i could see them gobbling down another spoonful of food when in fact they have not even swallowed the food that was in their mouth. gosh they just gobbled it up. another thing, i don't really like people chewing out loud, till the point you could hear the rhythm each time the food reaches in their mouth.

so maybe those are the reason why i chew and eat my food slowly. so that the person next to me can barely hear it. and also the fact that i don't like to be known as a lady with no or little table manners. i have always been that way. can't even remember when it started. i think it was due to my dad. he tolerates no such things and was strict when it came to table manners.

a break

monday all over again. thank goodness for the weekend getaway. even though it was only a road trip to seremban. it was peaceful but it could be a little boring at times when there's nothing else to do. all we did was drink, watch movies, gamble, eat and eat. :p. to live in a place whereby civilization is at it's limits can be boring. hahah. but it was all good. felt really good getting away from the normal routine, the city and also the people. would be great if we could have stayed a lil more longer and just laze around the house.

a break much needed by me, i think. to be able to be absolutely lazy and not worry about where should we go next and what should we do or anything else. much like my other weekends but being away from the city feels great. with the moon shinning bright and the stars looking like sparkling diamonds in the sky. awh, so dramatic.

and now i'm back to work. back to slavery day in and day out. how i wish i could just sit back and relax and watch the world go at it. unfortunately, sold my poor little soul to work.

show me the money

when i was young i couldn't wait to be an adult and to earn my own living. and now i am an adult and earning my own living but it seems to be not enough. with everything going up in price and our pay is at it's stand still point. i am not regretting to be an adult. i love it. it's part of a parcel of life. i wouldn't want to be still living under my parents’ money. how weird would that be.

i've always had some savings in my bank. until recently. as if now you see it and the next day you don't; like chipsmore cookies. i had to pay my insurance that was way, way over due. i owe them like a lil over than a thousand. not to forget that i have to pay the damn loan for my education. argh. with the money that i am getting, surviving is just fine. but wanting to save is another problem.

i am trying my best to save. and now taking up driving classes is one of the factor my cash flow is running low. i don't shop often. only once in awhile. but i guess the money goes to the drinking habits, which i've tried to curb as much as i can. i don't go out as often anymore. and yet i still could visualize my money flying away. i don't know why. maybe it's the food. i am very picky person when it comes to food. i don't know. it's tiring to think about it.

i have so many things to get. i need to get a car, i need to get myself a camera, i want a laptop. argh. so frustrating. and something have to give in order to get something. that means it would be a long while before i could afford to get something i really need or want.

at times i wish i was born wealthy. where i do not need to worry about money. or how i am going to pay this and that. or maybe i should just starve myself.

s.i.c.k

it seems as if my energy is being drawn out. feeling absolutely drained out. it seems as if something is taking my energy out of my body. i feel tired and incapable of doing anything.

my nose is itching, not because i'm lack of smoke simply because i am sick. i feel as if i can't breath. i can't stop sneezing. i can't seem to concentrate. i hate being sick. hate being unable to think without the nagging buzz in my brain.

my head is spinning. i feel as if my brain would explode anytime soon. that the veins in my head would pop out at any given time. the nagging buzz can't seems to stop neither it seems to slow down. it is at it's constant speed. a beat per second i think.

can't seem to put my sentence in the perfect nor in it's correct order. who cares. i don't think i do at this point of time.

i wish i could be home at this moment. lying in the comfort bed of mine, in the freezing room that would just make me sleep and forget about everything. but with the rate i'm going now, it will probably take me awhile to snooze off. if only....